Here it is the end of October with temperatures dropping at night into the minuses already. With snow storms the last couple of days there haven’t been much sun. With that being said I unplug refrigerator and only plug it in a couple of times during a twenty-four hour period as I conserve energy.
The remote stopped working on the generator and a gentleman took a look at it for me and now the generator will not start. With temperatures being in the minus I have noticed a huge difference with the temperature within the cabin as this morning when I awoke it was 47 degree’s. I do believe the extra backing sewn on curtains, more carpet installed along with closing off open area around cabin has helped.
Everyday is a new experience. This morning along with the colder temps and limited solar I used a flashlight to build fire in wood burning stove.
Some have asked me if I burn coal in wood burning stove. When asked this question I have felt a feeling of fear which I share with them. A friend brought some coal over a couple of weeks ago. I looked up specs on stove and it is not rated for coal. Guess my intuition knew best.
This morning as I built a nice little fire the girls found the warmth enjoyable as they both went back to sleep in front of it. It is a toasty place to sleep.
Unconditional Trust has been a huge learning tool for living off grid. In order to live and survive in the harsh environment of the Utah winters it has been impertinent to learn to have unconditional trust within myself. Living here by myself I had no one who I relied on except for myself to get me through the cold winter months.
Before I could learn to trust myself I had to learn the principles of life and how those principles have assisted during this spiritual awakening. What do I mean by principles? Just as a farmer has to prepare the land for his crops, I have had to learn to be prepared for what’s approaching in the coming months.
To prepare for the winter months I need to make sure I have enough firewood cut, enough water storage, cabinets full of food, propane bottles filled, gas cans filled and of course enough dog and cat food for Sissy and Gracie.
Last winter I hadn’t learned these principles, as I ran out of firewood, gas, and propane. Thank goodness for Mother Nature as she supplied me with an abundance of water.
Interesting as I am an independent person all the while I hadn’t had unconditional trust within myself. This insight has been a huge learning now its time to be interdependent.
As I type this it is now up to 32 degree’s outside and 70 in side of cabin. I awoke to 7 degree temperature. The weather forecast is calling for -3 degree’s tomorrow night. I am staying warm. With Gracie and Sissy lying next to me at night makes it nice and warm.
The locals say this winter will be like last winter only colder. I am more prepared now. I installed a pull down blind, installed curtains, hung doors, more carpet installed and I have more firewood this year then last. Now its time to gather up winter clothing! I just might need them real soon.
The nights are getting colder as I continue gathering firewood, sewing fleece on the back of curtains in order to keep the cold out along with other odds and ends. I have learned to pace myself and ask for help when needed.
All week I have had trouble breathing. I thought it was due to the density in the air with the coolness. After a couple of days of not being able to breathe I meditated on the reason for the shortness of breath. As I meditated I became aware the reason for the shortness of breath is actually caused by the inflammation of the four bulging disc in thoracic area.
With that being said I have honored my body this week. Before this spiritual awakening there would have been no time to stop and care for what my body needed. The more self love and the more connected with God and spirit the easier it has been for me to honor my body.
The other day a friend came up and we went and visited A COURSE IN MIRACLES MONASTERY which is only 10 miles from the cabin. We met a wonderful gentleman by the name of Jason. He gave us a tour and shared the summer retreat offered there and more. Jason is such a delight.
Jason invited me back the following week. I took him up on it and went back. He prepared me a wonderful lunch as we sat and chatted with one another. We also spoke of him visiting the cabin next week.
What I found interesting is when I arrived back to cabin and began organizing meditation room I looked over at bookshelf and noticed I had a copy of the book “A COURSE IN MIRACLES” which I have had sense 2007. Sense meeting Jason I began reading it. This says a lot as I am not one who enjoys reading. I usually listen to books on audio.
Now each morning after meditating I read A Course In Miracles. What a wonderful way to begin any day!
Fall is a busy time of year here. This is the first year I have collected pine nuts and I am excited! I keep giving them away. Now it’s time to collect and save some for myself. Gracie even likes eating them. The girls and I place a towel under us as we meditate and give thanks.
I have also been busy preparing sunflower seeds this fall as well. It is also the first time I have harvested sunflower seeds. The first batch is salted and the next batch will be peppered. They are pretty yummy.
I have also been busy collecting firewood for winter. Under stairs in cabin is also full. Now to finish filling up the yellow canvas with firewood, which is about half full currently. No frost bite on this ladies toes this winter.
This morning as I prepared for the day I felt this emptiness within me. It felt like a hole of emptiness, despair, dissatisfaction along with uneasiness.
At first I thought it might be due to a text I received from one of my daughters. I have been in deep thought sense receiving her text. Then I realized her text and name calling had nothing to do with me personally as she is on her own path. Her situation is due to decisions she has made as an adult. I am feeling a disconnection this morning.
As I pulled a card this morning the card I pulled “hole in the soul” As I read what the meaning of the card meant once again it brought me back to taking the mask off that I had worn for so many years.
Today I spend a couple of hours drawing pictures of myself as I went back on my timeline. I drew a face and named each one for the negative experiences from the past. Are the really negative or just my perception? I spent a couple of hours shifting what I once that was negative into what was positive about the situation.
Today I will give thanks to each one of those experiences and place in the fire to be burned.
Three days ago I invited a few ladies out to do a soul cleanse on the day of Octobers full moon. What a wonderful experience. We began by collecting pine nuts for them to take home with them. We then gathered cedar, sage and sweet grass to burn in the fire pit which we will use to cleanse our souls. As I built the fire the ladies drummed. Once the fire was built I led them through a meditation to have their souls cleansed. Amazing experience!
Today is the third day and as I pulled a card today I was given the card of Bat which represents rebirth. I was prompted to write on paper. As I wrote I was prompted to bury the paper instead of burning it. Just as we bury people and animals as they pass I felt the need to bury the emotions I held within for so long. I will always have the memories to reflect back upon if I choose. Today I will prepare a place on the property which will be similar to a cemetery where I and others can lay to rest what no longer serves us.
I am offering free soul cleanses each month on the day of the full moon. If you are unable to make it in person simply email me at firstname.lastname@example.org and I will add you in spirit.
The next full moon is on November 12th 2019. I will be doing the soul cleanse event between 11 am and 1 pm on that day.
Simply amazing! Every time I do a soul cleansing on myself I receive confirmation.
This morning as I spoke with a friend I mentioned for the last couple of weeks I have meditated prior to going to bed at night on becoming more humble.
As I put my clothes on this morning I was prompted to walk over and open the Bible for a message. The ego part of me came through loud and clear “you do not have time” something within me didn’t accept as I found myself opening the Bible. Here is the passage.
Love and Hugs
What a wonderful way to honor the October full moon. A couple of friends came out to cabin as we gathered cedar to make smudge sticks, collected pine nuts and drummed at the fire pit.
We build a fire after collecting cedar, sage and sweet grass to burn. We gathered around fire for a meditation as the smoke cleansed our soul. It was truly magical.
I have known Mary for many years and know she is not a dog person. Interesting enough Gracie would not leave her alone until after the meditation where Mary shared it was Gracie which gave her the answer she sought. I teased with Mary “ Gracie is a heeler (healer). Lol
The fire pit is open and free of charge to anyone wanting a soul cleanse and I have to say each time I have done and offered soul cleansing to others it has brought new insights, knowledge and growth within. It is truly a magical experience.
The insights I have gained from these two are priceless.
How I became aware of Sissy’s intuitive nature: One day as I spoke on the phone I noticed my one hand covered my heart while the other hand held the phone. It was then Sissy bit me in the butt. I questioned her behavior as she had not bit me prior. On another occasion as I laid on the couch attempting to text she continued to put her butt in my face which made it impossible to text back.
I tapped into her energy and became aware of what I already knew. The people on the other end of the line were not for my highest and best good. I knew this on some levels and instead of honoring what my body was communicating I made excuses. Now I honor Sissy and her messages.
Gracie has been such a blessing as well. I am a healer by nature and apparently so is Gracie. She is a heeler mix or shall I say a healer mix. A woman came out to the cabin which is not found of dogs. Each time I have been around this woman and seen how dogs respond to her it was clear she didn’t connect with them.
This woman came out to the cabin for a soul cleanse. Gracie greeted her and would simply not leave her alone. This woman kept commenting how she felt a connection with Gracie. As this woman meditated Gracie gave her the message she needed at this time and the message: for the woman was to remember how to use animal spirit and energy for the highest and best good for all involved. I believe Gracie was her messenger on this day! These two have a bond which is unseen by the naked eye. It was truly an amazing experience to witness.