As I became quiet this morning the thought of whole in my soul came through. I dismissed it and the next thought prompted me to visit my inner child.
I remembered a picture of myself as a little girl. My head was down, I was a little thick in the stomach and I wasn’t smiling, I was looking up though which to me shows the emotion of hope. Interesting as I looked at this picture I noticed I still ware these types of shirts at times, more so prior to moving to the cabin. I attempted to look into my eyes from the picture, I couldn’t see them. The feeling I did get was of darkness!
I am righted handed. I was prompted to write with my left hand which I believe accessed the younger me within as that younger me began to write. Here is what was written with my left hand.
(Inner child) Dear Shirley,
I feel defeated, unlovable, unwanted, not good enough, ugly, no self esteem/worth along with undeserving of mothers love.
(Adult me responding)
Shirley you are beautiful. You are unique, witty and funny. You have a magical presence to you. People find value in what you have to say and they love you for your kindness and pure loving heart. You are Gods messenger and your purpose here on earth is to teach others how to love, honor and respect themselves.
You are lovable and you love. It’s good to give and receive in a balanced manner. You are an inspiring person and through God’s will you will share his message leading people to access pure love. You are strong, courageous and uplifting to others as you teach, value, worth and self love.
Writing with my left hand I asked myself:
What does my inner child need to feel better?
She needs to feel loved and accepted. She wants to feel like she belongs or a feeling of connection. She wants to feel joy and happiness. She wants to laugh and play. She wants to jump up and down.
She wants to be free and enjoy life.
Love and Hugs